It has been since the 12th that I last wrote in my food/migraine diary about having a migraine. That’s the day I took the Excedrin Migraine and stopped it in it’s tracks. I had starting signs for one on the 17th, but after more rest it went back away. Today I have one again. I got really nauseated last night (couldn’t even finish my sandwich) and took an anti-nausea pill, slept from a bit after 3am until sometime around 7:30 am, at which point I woke up starving, had some breakfast, went back to sleep until 10:45 am or so when our neighbor who loves playing music (with LOADS of bass) very loudly woke me up, at which point I realized I had a migraine going. Two hours later the pain is manageable and more like a normal headache (though I’m sure if I don’t keep pain meds in me it’ll be a migraine again), with the help of most of a can of coca cola (yay caffeine…. ugh) and one half of one of my prescription pain pills. I have been keeping a food diary since the 12th, and also keeping track of pain levels, and any treatments I do for headaches, keeping track of meds I’m taking and when, and anything else that seems to contribute to my migraines (such as using the phone when it’s got white noise on the line, like I had to this morning when I called the landlady about our neighbor, and like last night when I had a quick phone call to make)… I notice if there isn’t static or other noise on t he line I can talk without it giving me too much of a headache, but if there is any noise on the line besides the person I’m talking to I’m prone to start having headaches. I have 3 foods I currently suspect for linking to this migraine. First is hotdogs, primarily because my pain shot back up not long after I finished having left over mac & cheese with hot dogs in it awhile ago, and we had that for dinner last night too, nausea started a couple of hours later. I had been craving corndogs about a week and a half ago…. and looking back at my diary/journal I had pretty much constant headaches (though not generally migraines) while eating those frequently. So that helps with my suspicion. The hotdogs are also a different (and cheaper) brand than the corndogs we buy (we’re corndog snobs … at least as far as what you can buy at walmart lol… they need to be one of two brands, the names of which I can’t think of… but they are the more expensive ones as the cheapies are gross…. hotdogs we’ll go cheap with though)… so that could be the cause of why hotdogs give me migraines, whereas corndogs just give me nasty (constant) headaches. My next suspect is Beef… which I’ve been trying not to eat as much of anyway. I have been having hamburgers again lately, so it’s been in my system more again. The third (and most sad) is chocolate. I still haven’t worked out what the link is there. I do know that I had been doing fine with small amounts of chocolate, but yesterday I had a bit bigger piece, and a different kind than I’d been having, and I”m having a migraine again. I think though, that it’s a coincidence with the chocolate and my headaches since I don’t always get a headache, let alone a migraine after eating it… but if I’m going into a migraine I crave it (and do pretty well not having it at that point, yesterday I wasn’t craving it, I just decided to try a piece again after not having any for a few days)… so we shall see… I’m continuing this food journal thing. Another thing to note is that this is the first migraine I’ve had since I started bleeding with the miscarriage…. I don’t know if that is linked or not… I know hormones were definitely causing some of the issues, so it could be. :/

For those who don’t know me well, or aren’t in my life anywhere but this blog… I LOVE food. I have trouble gaining weight, so this isn’t usually a problem. I don’t overeat (usually) but it is one of my joys in life, and although I’m not huge on cooking, I do like to try different things.. I’m (generally) not a picky eater. Or… I wasn’t a picky eater until I had to become one. I have multiple issues that *should* change the way I eat, but they never have. For example, I’m severely lactose intolerant… like to the point that the lactaid pills you take each time you have dairy don’t help unless I take at least double the dose they say to. I no longer take those. I now take probiotics that are formulated specifically for lactose intolerance. And I have to take two of those every day to be able to eat dairy, even though most people can cut it down to one a day after the first few daily doses. If I miss days and have to start all over taking them I have some issues the first day or two when I have dairy again (though not as severe as without them). Also I have other health issues that have diets to follow to help reduce some of the pain. I do stick with certain parts of them, such as I don’t generally eat citrusy or acidic foods (this is VERY tough since I love sour and citrus foods!), but there is a very obvious difference in how I feel when I splurge. Once in awhile I can splurge (with the proper medication taken at the same time that neutralizes a portion of the acid) and be okay, but those foods will not be a part of my normal diet again unless they come up with better treatments or a cure. There is a med I can take for my bladder, which makes it so that I am more able to tolerate foods and such, it helps build the lining back up, so things don’t get to the tender part of my bladder under that lining as much and I don’t have as much pain… but uninsured it’s $400 a month (last time I checked, I’ve recently heard more expensive quotes from other friends) so it’s not in the books right now since although I’m insured now I have to wait on pre existing clauses…
Anyway, onto the main point of this post. I’ve been very nervous trying to decide how to handle Thanksgiving with my inlaws. They know how much I love to eat, and I’ve spent a few holidays with them now, so they know how I am about stuffing myself at holiday meals. This year however, I’m having to eat very differently than I have so far, and a big thing is not eating protein, so I was trying to figure out how to do this without insulting them or having to tell awkward answers at the dinner table if asked what was happening. My digestion issues really aren’t dinner table conversation lol. All of us except my father in law have had some type of job in the medical field at one point or another, so 5 of the 6 of us don’t care… but he really does lol. So I was trying to figure out if I fill them in about my medical stuff ahead of time (my MIL is a nurse, so I figured if I called and filled anyone in it would be her) or if I just say ahead of time that my diet is limited right now or what. I asked E the other day, because it was a really big concern on my mind. He suggested we bring left overs home so I can enjoy some of the foods that I won’t touch while we’re there (I’m not wanting to make myself ill here or there, but I’d rather have the pain happen here, and I can’t pass up some turkey completely…), and if they ask just say a general “my health is getting a lot worse, so I’m having to eat a very limited diet right now” type of thing, and I can mention the likelihood of pancreatitis because my MIL will understand, and she can explain later if anyone else has questions…. They do know I’m applying for disability and all, so they are aware I’m not doing well, and after my last appt I told my MIL it was likely something with my pancreas, so hopefully that will keep it from getting too awkward. However, my in laws don’t have the greatest memories for reasons I’m not going into here, so I’m not sure if she remembers about the pancreas stuff or not. I would have worried about all of this anyway, but things are somewhat tense between me and my MIL, or were last time we spoke, so I really don’t want to make the situation worse. So that’s how we’re handling that. And the same will likely be done for Christmas, though I’m hoping that maybe they’ll think to ask if there are any certain foods to include in the meal for that get together. I’m not too worried either way, there’s usually enough variety that I’ll find enough food to fill myself… so it’ll all work out on that end. 🙂 Another way I may handle it, if I’m still not past this flare, is to just take the Ensure with me that I’ll be switching my entire diet to later tonight and tell them we’ll take left overs home for me to eat when I’m back on solid food again. Either way, it’s covered. 🙂

For those who don’t know me well, or aren’t in my life anywhere but this blog… I LOVE food. I have trouble gaining weight, so this isn’t usually a problem. I don’t overeat (usually) but it is one of my joys in life, and although I’m not huge on cooking, I do like to try different things.. I’m (generally) not a picky eater. Or… I wasn’t a picky eater until I had to become one. I have multiple issues that *should* change the way I eat, but they never have. For example, I’m severely lactose intolerant… like to the point that the lactaid pills you take each time you have dairy don’t help unless I take at least double the dose they say to. I no longer take those. I now take probiotics that are formulated specifically for lactose intolerance. And I have to take two of those every day to be able to eat dairy, even though most people can cut it down to one a day after the first few daily doses. If I miss days and have to start all over taking them I have some issues the first day or two when I have dairy again (though not as severe as without them). Also I have other health issues that have diets to follow to help reduce some of the pain. I do stick with certain parts of them, such as I don’t generally eat citrusy or acidic foods (this is VERY tough since I love sour and citrus foods!), but there is a very obvious difference in how I feel when I splurge. Once in awhile I can splurge (with the proper medication taken at the same time that neutralizes a portion of the acid) and be okay, but those foods will not be a part of my normal diet again unless they come up with better treatments or a cure. There is a med I can take for my bladder, which makes it so that I am more able to tolerate foods and such, it helps build the lining back up, so things don’t get to the tender part of my bladder under that lining as much and I don’t have as much pain… but uninsured it’s $400 a month (last time I checked, I’ve recently heard more expensive quotes from other friends) so it’s not in the books right now since although I’m insured now I have to wait on pre existing clauses…
Anyway, onto the main point of this post. I’ve been very nervous trying to decide how to handle Thanksgiving with my inlaws. They know how much I love to eat, and I’ve spent a few holidays with them now, so they know how I am about stuffing myself at holiday meals. This year however, I’m having to eat very differently than I have so far, and a big thing is not eating protein, so I was trying to figure out how to do this without insulting them or having to tell awkward answers at the dinner table if asked what was happening. My digestion issues really aren’t dinner table conversation lol. All of us except my father in law have had some type of job in the medical field at one point or another, so 5 of the 6 of us don’t care… but he really does lol. So I was trying to figure out if I fill them in about my medical stuff ahead of time (my MIL is a nurse, so I figured if I called and filled anyone in it would be her) or if I just say ahead of time that my diet is limited right now or what. I asked E the other day, because it was a really big concern on my mind. He suggested we bring left overs home so I can enjoy some of the foods that I won’t touch while we’re there (I’m not wanting to make myself ill here or there, but I’d rather have the pain happen here, and I can’t pass up some turkey completely…), and if they ask just say a general “my health is getting a lot worse, so I’m having to eat a very limited diet right now” type of thing, and I can mention the likelihood of pancreatitis because my MIL will understand, and she can explain later if anyone else has questions…. They do know I’m applying for disability and all, so they are aware I’m not doing well, and after my last appt I told my MIL it was likely something with my pancreas, so hopefully that will keep it from getting too awkward. However, my in laws don’t have the greatest memories for reasons I’m not going into here, so I’m not sure if she remembers about the pancreas stuff or not. I would have worried about all of this anyway, but things are somewhat tense between me and my MIL, or were last time we spoke, so I really don’t want to make the situation worse. So that’s how we’re handling that. And the same will likely be done for Christmas, though I’m hoping that maybe they’ll think to ask if there are any certain foods to include in the meal for that get together. I’m not too worried either way, there’s usually enough variety that I’ll find enough food to fill myself… so it’ll all work out on that end. 🙂 Another way I may handle it, if I’m still not past this flare, is to just take the Ensure with me that I’ll be switching my entire diet to later tonight and tell them we’ll take left overs home for me to eat when I’m back on solid food again. Either way, it’s covered. 🙂

I’m tired of whining, but I am just not having a good time right now!!
Everything over the last week and a half or so, then fevers yesterday and today, and my period started this morning (about 10 or 15 days late)… no, wait…. not my period, just spotting followed by horrible cramping this afternoon that I hope means the period is on it’s way! I’ve been doing a lot of sleeping again the last 2 or 3 days.
Today has been spent in the doldrums! And yes, that’s a real place, just read The Phantom Tollbooth!! I adore that book.
Trying to find some positives because I’m sick of whining… ummm…. we made some awesome food yesterday! Chicken and rice in cream of mushroom soup. It turned out to be our best batch yet, and it’s already almost gone.
Homemade hot chocolate! A couple of weeks ago I wanted some hot chocolate and we decided to get cocoa powder rather than premade mix packets… then I was looking at our powdered milk bag and found a recipe for making home made mix. That will be posted soon, as I want to share!
Actually feeling useful around the house. Since the kids left I’ve been ill enough that I’ve done a load of dishes here, or a load of laundry there, but I’ve spent A LOT of time sick and/or sleeping. Today I unloaded and reloaded the dishes, and washed and dried 3 loads of laundry. I also got some of my table/desk cleaned up.
I think I’ll end there before I start whining again. So there you go… it’s been a rough time, but I’m still finding some sort of positive in it (and hoping it’s over soon)!!

Edit: If you want to know more about the last week or so I have a three posts up about it. One from Wednesday morning, one from Wednesday afternoon, and one from Thursday afternoon. … When I say it’s not been an easy week or 10 days I mean it… and not just on a health standpoint (actually I think they only really touch on health stuff…).