1. The illness I live with is: Endometriosis, Fibromyalgia, Interstitial Cystitis, Vaginismus, Vulvodynia, Systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE, Lupus), allergies, depression.

2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: Allergies – mid 1990’s (officially, though we’d talked with doctors about them earlier than that); Depression – 1999 or 2000; Endometriosis – 2005; Fibro, IC, Vaginismus, Vulvodynia – 2007; SLE/Lupus – 2008

3. But I had symptoms since: A lot of them have been since I was very young, the depression was when I was a teen… not even sure on the fibro and IC, they were hidden by the others.

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Ummm… so many adjustments… having to plan out even trips to the store and make sure I’ve covered the what ifs, because they’ll likely happen if I’m not ready. Wearing braces on my wrists (and sometimes other joints) when I have to drive more than a couple of miles (and even then I should be wearing them for driving). Not being able to just go places, either for errands or with friends.

5. Most people assume: that because I’m young and (mostly) look healthy I couldn’t possibly have as much pain as I do.

6. The hardest part about mornings are: … this is split into two parts… getting myself out of bed when I hurt, and managing to get myself some breakfast and something to drink so I can take my medications.

7. My favorite medical TV show is: Umm… I don’t have one lol! That’s one of the genres I just can’t seem to get in to.

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: Our laptop. When I’m stuck in bed or on the couch I have to have it because it is my link to the outside, and my friends and family help keep me from sinking into (worse) depression. It also provides excellent distractions in the forms of websites, forums, games and so on.

9. The hardest part about nights are: Not being able to sleep in one position all night very often, even with extra pillows and padding under and around me… I end up waking up to move at least two or three times a night, a lot of times I move more often than that.

10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please) Individual pills – Up to 14 or 16. Different meds/vitamins – 7 or 8

11. Regarding alternative treatments I: do a lot of research and have probably already heard of and looked at what you may be thinking to suggest. I appreciate the suggestions (as long as they are given with the right attitude… tellign me “This WILL cure you/stop your pain/take care of your symptoms” is the fastest way to get me to ignore you and blow off your advice), but don’t be upset or offended if I tell you that either I have tried it and it didn’t help, or I won’t try it because I’ve already looked into it. I do have a supplement I take when not pregnant to help my liver, and I will be possibly adding some other things into my treatments when I can safely add things again, but Johnny and I both do research, and I discuss things with my doctors before adding them, and I take research with me if it’s likely my doctors aren’t familiar with them, so we can make the best decisions for ME and MY HEALTH ISSUES.

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: Visible

13. Regarding working and career: At this point just being a mom takes a lot out of me… I’m hoping to work at least parttime again, but full time is not an option, and part tiime is hard. If I can start working again it will definitely have to be something flexible that can be done out of our home.

14. People would be surprised to know: just how much has to be done for me some days that I can’t do on my own, vs just how much I do on my own some days.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: not being able to take care of everything I need, or the mental stuff…. there are days where I can’t communicate well at all because I’m unable to come up with words….

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Be as happy in my life as I am. My life is hard, and I do deal with depression, but I am blessed and I have a wonderful family and wonderful friends and so many awesome things happening in my life…. even as depression touches it all and makes it hard to deal with, I am incredibly happy at the same time… which is an entirely weird feeling.

17. The commercials about my illness: Hmmm…. I know there are commercials out there, but I don’t have tv so I never see them. I know there is a great project out there called Could I have Lupus. I think fibromyalgia may have some commercials too? I’m not really sure.

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: being in the sun (at all) without it causing rashes, trouble sleeping, headaches, even easier sunburning than I’ve lived with all my life. I admit I’d been in the sun less and less leading up to my lupus becoming diagnosable… but the option was always there. Now I can’t even garden in the ground, it’s all got to be in flower pots and things that can be moved into the house or in the shade where I can care for them. :/

19. It was really hard to have to give up: being able to do what I want when I want to.

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: crocheting

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: want to know ahead of time so I could travel to California and spend it at the beach with my family (my kids, Johnny, my sister(s- including inlaws) and my parents and cousins and aunts and uncles and grandmothers and whoever else) and and friends.

22. My illness has taught me: to be more patient with others (generally, still learning this one lol) because I don’t know what illness or other issue could be affecting them.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: but you’re too young to have all those health issues. Lupus, endo, etc. don’t know ages. Actually… I take that back… pretty much everything I have is most likely to become active during reproductive years, and most likely to do so in women…. so they do know age… young ages. My age has both nothing and everything to do with my being so ill. Nothing because it doesn’t matter how young I am I do have these, and everything because I’m am in the age range that most of these things strike in (not counting allergies or depression)….

24. But I love it when people: give me hugs, ask how I’m doing, tell me I’m strong.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: If You’re going through Hell, keep on going.

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: They are not alone and it is possible to live with all of this. I also wish I could give them hugs. It’s a hard road, even if it is livable.

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: I can’t think of anything, because I’ve been ill my whole life, I just didn’t have names for most of it until my 20s. I guess it would be the validation that having names for these things would bring.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Hmmm… are we counting all the awesome care and spoilage I get from Johnny? When he’s able to he makes special meals for me, he brings home surprises from the store for me when he can, all the care he gives me with taking care of things I can’t do. Otherwise…. cards and gifts that have been sent, especially the ones that have been complete surprises.

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: Well I haven’t been as involved as I’d have liked since I’ve been super busy with medical appointments this week (including traveling out of state to see one doctor because the closest one in state is at least 6 hours away)… but I’m taking part because these illnesses affect so many people, yet so few people outside of those of us affected and our close friends and family members know about them. We’ve GOT to raise awareness! And we need understanding from people!

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: so special and so appreciative. The fact you took the time to read this means the world to me.

To learn more about Invisible Illness Week visit this site. If you’d like to do this meme, the blank form can be found here, and please leave a comment at the bottom with a link to your post about it if it’s posted somewhere that you can do so (like a blog) so that everyone can read it!

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I got my latest lab results back yesterday, according to the latest tests my kidneys are in normal range for the levels that were tested (creatine and protein) and my OB isn’t worried. The nurse told me to call my rheumy and get in with her (which, from what I understand, she’s on vacation) or with her on call doctor if she has one (nurse insists she must, but I’m betting if she does the on call is in another city). I’ve been in a kidney flare since Tuesday, though at times it lets up, it’s really bad today. I’m just sick today with headaches, nausea, kidney pain and all around lupus stuff. And I”m tired… I’m tired physically and I’m tired mentally.
I’m also sick and tired of having to be detective for what’s wrong with my body…. I’m NOT the medical professional, yet when they aren’t listening, or when there isn’t something glaringly wrong (though, if I have days where I can’t get out of pain due to bed I’d say there is something glaringly wrong) they don’t look into it as much as they should. I’m sick of Johnny and I having to be the ones coming up with what could be wrong, then pushing my doctors into doing tests to find out if we’re right or not. I’m sick of us having to be detectives. And I’m sick of my body and mind, at 25, failing me. There are days where I’m great, I can communicate, I can walk and move and get out of bed and run and do all sorts of things. Most days aren’t like that though. Most days it takes me awhile to find the words I’m looking for, and by the time I find the word I forget what I was talking about…. OR… I start rambling on defining the words I’m trying to use so that people can figure out what they mean. That’s one of the things that bothers me most when I start getting down from all of this… the mental affects. It’s also why most days I won’t use our phone (if it’s even working) to talk to people, and why most people can’t reach me on instant messengers either…. communication is too difficult, and either I can’t say what I want to say, or I end up with craziness coming out of my brain and going straight to my mouth or fingers before I’ve really thought about it and been able to realize that’s not what I mean or it’s now hot I should say it. Today though, as much as that’s all bothering me, what’s really bugging me is that at 25 years old my body can’t do it’s job right. I’ve got multiple diseases where my body is attacking itself, and/or not attacking what it should be. My endo seems to be a case of both (rogue tissue goes and grows where it shouldn’t – attacking itself, and my immune system says “oh, that’s part of my body, I don’t need to attack it” and doesn’t do anything to stop it – simplified version of one of the theories going around right now), my lupus is my immune system attacking other parts of my body and being over active, and I have other health issues that are more of the same (though they don’t attack me as badly)…. the other stuff is minor compared with those two generally. I’m just so sick of all this crap going on.

Im prepping for a trip (as I mentioned before) and the stress has my lupus going some, but over all, other than exhaustion (I still say it’s a combo of lupus and pregnancy) my lupus is about the same. I am so thankful for that. My endo and interstitial cystitis are both giving me issues on and off, but I expected that to continue.
Littlest still seems to be doing fine, no miscarriage, I should have an ultrasound done when I have my next appointment if I understand correctly. 🙂 Either way, things seem pretty even. I’m 8 or 8 1/2 weeks now. 😀 Every day it works out is another day further than I’ve made it before!
My shots are going well, Johnny has done all but one so far. The one I did (to prove to both of us I can do them and am able to do this trip as far as that’s concerned) left me bruised up, I pinched too hard and I was really uneven with pushing the hep into my skin, sometimes I was fast, sometimes I was barely pushing at all. I am able to do it though! 🙂 I am in shock, I’m terrified of needles, the thought of doing the shots still makes me feel sick, but I am able to do it! 😀 This is a VERY good thing. Thankfully even though we’ve proven I can do it (and of course could improve if I did it regularly) Johnny is willing to keep doing them, my dad will do them when I’m with my parents, and my cousin will do it while I stay with her and her husband, so I have a minimal amount of shots I have to do! That is a huge relief for me!
Later on today we have a nurse coming in through this program – Nurse family partnership – who will work with me through the pregnancy, then up until the baby is two years old! 🙂 She’ll be in weekly at first, then we’ll be having biweekly appointments after that until the birth. Once the birth happens we’ll meet weekly again for a bit, before going back to bi weekly. I am so thankful for the different programs in the area for pregnant women. I have been able to actually get insurance through medicaid, though it’s not fully kicked in yet; I am on WIC and getting check ups with them, as well as good food; and there is the nurse program. I think there was one other, but I haven’t heard back from them yet, so I could be mistaken (it’s been almost two weeks since I went and did my medicaid app and found about the other programs besides WIC)…. either way there are some great resources here that are helping a lot.

So yesterday (Sunday) morning I had some cramping happen again, but between how I was laying and the fact I’ve been having gas I wasn’t too worried. Then around 9pm or so I started having massive dizzy spells. I had just taken a nice warm bath (not too hot, I’ve cooled my bath temps down from normal) and sometimes it happens so I just sat there for a bit before getting dressed and it eventually cleared up. Nothing to worry about, right? Well a couple hours later I was chatting with friends while sitting at my pc when I got hit with an even more massive dizzy spell that wasn’t clearing up, so I moved to the couch and rested for a bit, but since I wasn’t feeling any better I decided to go to bed. I thought maybe it was just that I haven’t had as much protein the last couple of days (mainly it’s been pb for protein as neither of us have been up to cooking and we need to buy some more easy protein stuff) … but when I got into bed the pain returned and my dizziness got worse, so I ended up making my way to the phone and calling Johnny at work saying I thought something was wrong and needed to get to ER. I wasn’t sure if the infection was worse than we’d thought and the antibiotics weren’t working or if I had something going on with the pregnancy. Unfortunately he was unable to leave work. I called his mom, who works at the nursing home connected to the hospital, and asked if she was home or working and if she could get me to ER. She was able to leave work and pick me up (5 minute drive each way if you hit red lights at night) and dropped me off at ER before returning to work. I got in, and of course between me being absolutely freezing (I wore my winter coat over long sleeve pjs and a pair of pants) and being emotional my Raynaud’s was not happy so they couldn’t get the machine to read anything other than my BP (which was a little higher than normal, but it has been with this pregnancy, and it’s not unhealthy – plus with the fact of more blood it makes sense for it to be a few points higher) so they sent me to admissions to do my paperwork, then settled me in a room and started warming me up and asking questions. I ended up needing a urinalysis run, and they wanted a bunch of blood. The urinalysis was pretty easy, though I’d peed not long before I got dizzy, so there wasn’t a whole lot and they called it concentrated (don’t ask me how when I’m drinking water like it’s going out of style) and they worked on getting a blood draw and IV going. We got the needle in with the first poke, but my vein wasn’t giving blood (not unusual) so they decided to just start the IV and wait for the doctor to see exactly what tests NEEDED doing, and which could be ignored. After awhile the doc came in and talked to me and told me what she wanted to do (IV, Urinalysis, HCG quantification) and the EMT tried again to do a blood draw. My right arm is sporting one spot where the IV was at… my left has either 3 or 4. The doctor messed up one of my veins while the EMT was trying to get enough blood out of it by moving my arm *while he was in the process of trying to draw and not warning him!!* …. Needless to say between her comments about my pregnancy (oh, well at least you are barely pregnant) and that action I’m not impressed. After she walked out the EMT and I laughed about how “Doctors shouldn’t try to do my job” … we were also laughing about my poor veins. I like it when the people working on me can laugh with me because they are a major pain in the ass!!!! VERY few people have luck with them, let alone as fast as he got my IV going. We finally got a good vein for the blood draw, and he left the needle in once he got enough in case the doctor changed her mind. Once he confirmed we were done with blood and that we were just waiting on the IV to finish he came back and took out the extra needle (the one in my left arm, not the one for the IV that was in my right) and got it all bandaged up and checked my IV bag. A bit later the doctor came in and said that my urine was concentrated, but clean; that my HCG would be ready in the morning; that I needed an ultrasound (no u/s techs at our hosp at night); and to drink lots of fluids constantly and to have my bladder full for the u/s. Then she walked back out and I didn’t see her again. The EMT did most of my care, the nurse was in less than the doctor (I saw the doctor 3 times, the nurse twice, the EMT 5 or 6 times)… I can’t complain, he was nice, and we talked while he did the blood draw (mostly about EMT stuff and my veins)… I would have loved to see the nurse and doctor even less as both were rude. So after the IV bag finished they released me and my MIL brought me home. I go back in 5 hours and have the u/s and find out if my hcg is right or not. The doctor said I’m far enough along that not only will we be able to make sure the pregnancy implanted in the right spot, if everything is good we’ll see the heart beat! I can’t even express how much my heart is in my throat about that… I’m excited and absolutely terrified. I think while I’m there doing the testing and getting results I’ll also go to the business office and complain about the doctor. The nurse wasn’t as bad (though I wouldn’t mind not dealing with her again) but I REALLY didn’t like that doctor. So that’s been my night, and now that I’ve had 2 glasses of water and eaten some food (eggs… thankfully I felt up to cooking them and getting some protein that way) I’m off to bed for a few hours until Johnny wakes me when he gets home so I can take my next dose of antibiotics and start working on all those fluids they want me to take and the filling of the bladder for the u/s. I’ll report back (with a new post) when I get home from the hospital later. Wow…. I just realized if things are good still I’ll get to u/s in less than a week. I knew that as far as I realized that Thursday I have an u/s and appointment with my ob, but it hadn’t hit home how close together they’d be! Anyway, off to bed I go! 🙂

Before I say anything (and I’m guessing that at least to some of my readers this will give away what’s coming) I want to say to any face to face friends or family members who know us in person – if you are reading this news and haven’t heard it from me or Johnny personally please contact us before you get all upset, we have our reasons that this has been kept quiet, so please just let us explain and don’t start contacting other family members or friends to find out if they know, they may end up pissed off too, which is the last thing we need.

IFers and M/C sisters beware, this could be a tough post.

Ok…. the reason for my last post, and for my silence lately is that I’m pregnant. I’m currently almost six weeks along, and have known since the first Tuesday in the month. The last two weeks have been extremely rocky as I have had to go on extra hormones, I had super scary cramping… I also had the “normal” cramping and pelvic twinges and such that are just part and parcel with pregnancy, but I’m talking cramps that had me in tears and felt like the ones I’ve had with my past miscarriages. For those just joining in on the story this is pregnancy number 5 for me, no live births, which means 4 miscarriages so far (I hate having to add so far on there, but even with the treatments I’m still really scared this is going to end badly) and at nearly six weeks this is the longest I’ve ever been pregnant. Three of those miscarriages have happened in the last year – starting the day before Father’s Day last year, then one in October at 5 weeks (the only one I even had a suspicion of pregnancy with, also the longest pregnancy I had before this one), and one in March. The cramping got really bad over the first weekend that I knew I was pregnant (I wasn’t able to start my progesterone suppositories until right before the weekend, a couple days after the positive) and I put myself on bedrest. The following Monday I called my ob’s office and the nurse told me to continue the bedrest until I heard back from my doctor. A couple days later I still hadn’t heard back so I started really bothering the staff to get me an answer, they had another of the ob’s review my case and I was told to go ahead and go off bedrest. I was supposed to up my progesterone, but there just isn’t money right now (I’m working on getting on other insurance) and now that it is in my system more I’m doing better. Then, Saturday or Sunday I started feeling more and more like absolute crap. I think it was Sunday I had some leg pain (one of those side effects they warn you about as it could be a clot) and early Monday morning I started itching around my butt, so I scratched and found that the skin felt really odd, so I had Johnny look at it (this was during his lunch break thankfully) and there was a good sized rash going on. I also had been having some issues urinating, but the retention I was having was listed as a possible side effect, and the pain I was having isn’t unusual (especially since I got brave and tried to drink one of my favorite drinks a day or so before – lemonade) so I hadn’t thought anything of it. Johnny bought a baby “healing creme” for me and has been applying it and the rash looks a lot better, I think we are at the point that we can stop treating it, it’s not itching anymore and although the skin is still a bit discolored (I look bruised) it’s definitely healed up. Due to all of this they switched my progesterone from suppositories to oral, same med and dose just different way of getting it into my body. Hopefully this works and I won’t have to do any more switching of meds. They also told me to “drop by and do a urinalysis” and I replied with something along the lines of there is no dropping by your office… I’m an hour from you guys, so they sent me to our PCP office, which I did Tuesday (yesterday for me) morning when they were able to get me in. Once I got there they gave me a cup and I went and peed in it so they could run the urinalysis… it was pretty obvious to me when I was closing up the cup and putting it in the cubby for the lab that something was up… I won’t go into details, but it was really obvious. Johnny and I both had appointments, so we took care of Johnny’s appointment, after which his doctor looked at the results, said “you have an infection, does your ob want to treat it or should I”… I didn’t know so he gave me a rx (the one he always uses for pregnant women apparently) and I’m to verify with my ob’s office that it is how they want it treated and start on it. So it’s been an eventful pregnancy. When I haven’t been dealing with those things I’ve been pretty happy, but it definitely hasn’t been an easy couple of weeks, and due to my health and miscarriage history we’ve been keeping it pretty quiet…. even with the treatments they are doing (aspirin and extra progesterone) we’re still walking on eggshells and pretty nervous about the whole thing. I have my first prenatal appointment and ultrasound next Thursday, we’ll see what the results are… the u/s tech isn’t entirely sure she’ll be able to see anything at that point, but since I’ll be pretty near 7 weeks she thinks that there is a good chance.

I want to let my readers know I don’t know how much or how little this pregnancy will come up in my blog…. when I’m not sick (like with this infection) although the pregnancy is on my mind it’s not so much a topic of conversation for this blog because my AI issues seem to be in remission. Unfortunately the infection has made my lupus flare a bit more and me feel like crap, but that’s no surprise. I will be doing updates, I’m not sure how frequently. Any pictures will be in password protected posts and labeled so that no one has to see them if they don’t want to, as I know how tough it is to see baby bump pictures when you want one so bad and can’t get there. This is my space and I will post what I need to, but if it does get rough for you to see the posts please let me know in a comment or email and I’ll let you know when non pregnancy posts are up (with a link) so that you don’t have to keep checking my blog and seeing pregnancy news. I am wanting to write about the pregnancy, especially as things change with my health, but I also do know how hard it can be to read and am concerned about how the news will affect the friends I’ve made through this blog. I know on a forum/community I’m on that deals with all sorts of topics and has both fertiles and infertiles there is a pregnancy boom going on and we’ve had a couple of members needing to take a break, which … although I haven’t necessarily forgotten where I’m coming from, has made me think a bit more about what I’m saying… I want to share my happy news, and I do want to give updates in what is a high risk pregnancy situation, but I also don’t want to overwhelm those for whom this is a sensitive topic, so like I said just let me know!

I think that’s all my news for now…. Umm…. I can’t think of anything else for now.

The OPKs and I didn’t get along, I’m just trusting my body on when I ovulate, because then I *actually* know. I’m not sure if it’s because they want specific temp pee and I never got it exact or if there’s something else, but the day I had EWCM (egg white cervical mucus – a sign of ovulation) although the line was darker than it had been, it was still negative according to the packet. Ok… I am adding to this paragraph a couple hours after I first typed it up because some other thoughts came to mind about what it could have been. The test strips I used say to test with any urine. I was doing them after Johnny got off work, whether I’d been up all night, or if I had gotten between 3 and 6 hours of sleep before that time (which has been more likely this cycle). I read somewhere before even starting the tests that a recommendation was to wait until you had been up for 4 hours or so before testing… I wonder if I would have had better results doing it that way. Either way I’m done with them. I think I’ll just listen to my body as it makes it pretty obvious when I ovulate.
So I’m in the 2WW now. And although the fact my last three pregnancies have all been a few months between, I feel good that we gave this cycle a good chance, even if nothing happens. Unfortunately Johnny had a stomach bug or was made ill by something he ate the day before I ovulated, and I was pretty sick the day of, but I’m still pretty confident that if my body cooperates this cycle has a good chance. So we shall see what happens, I’ve got about a week and a half or so to go.
Another sign I ovulated is that I’ve now got a bunch of ovary pain. I had some pain the day I ovulated, then it didn’t hurt as bad, I wasn’t comfortable, but I wasn’t crying or nauseated from the pain. I woke up this morning feeling like I have a cyst going again. I’m going to guess it’s either remnants from ovulation or it’s related to… corpus luteum (I think that’s the right words) and the 2WW where my body is getting ready in case there is a pregnancy on the way. I know last June I was pregnant and had a cyst, and that was the conclusion that was come to for why it happened. We shall see what happens on both the cyst front and the baby front.
I think I have some other things I wanted to post about, but I need to go get a prescription from the pharmacy, and they need their own posts….

Also known as “Love, Sex, and Chronic Illness” (Thanks for that title Sonja)

So Sonja, Johnny and I had a conversation a couple of ours ago that Sonja and I decided should be a blog post… I can’t take credit for the whole post, it was a threeway effort! 😛

I’m just going to copy and paste our conversation… when it’s one of the things I said and I have quotes around it that means it’s something Johnny said that I typed for him.

Oh, something I need to explain before I share the conversation – the reason we tease Johnny about having an “endo fetish” is because Duckling and Gamer’s mom has endo and obviously so do I. And the reason he joked about a sickie fetish is because the ex between Duckling and Gamer’s mom and him ending up with me isn’t healthy either. I suspect endometriosis (she was a friend of mine, as well as my ex sister in law, so I know about her issues, and the fact that it runs in her family) but no one actually knows what was going on with her, and she also just isn’t the healthiest girl ever…

Sonja says:
i think my boobs are getting bigger
(.)(.) are now ( . ) ( . )
lol

Jenny says:
LOL!

Sonja says:
alex was weirded out

Jenny says:
mine have been too, but not that much

Sonja says:
after my shower i was like “do they look bigger to you?”
wtf mom? ewwwwwww

Jenny says:
LOL!!!
Johnny says the breast fairy visited while you were sleeping and gave you an enlargement
and “The only thing the cat worries about is if tuna comes out of them”

Sonja says:
LOL!
and you’re ok with Johnny thinking about my tits?
that’s right!
my endo is back!
it’s his fetish!

Jenny says:
He’s shaking his head at you
“Must be huh?”

Sonja says:
hehehehe
i’m horrible

Jenny says:
yes

Jenny says:
I’m now teasing him about his endo fetish

Sonja says:
lol

Jenny says:
he said “no, it must be a sicky fetish” and we’re joking back and forth

Sonja says:
lol

Jenny says:
of course I had to make sure he knows I’m teasing him too

Sonja says:
yeah

Jenny says:
that could be one hell of a sensitive topic
I know it’s not, but it could be

Sonja says:
S&M in your guys’ case stans for sick and medicated
right

Jenny says:
LOL!
I’m eating, my mouth is full I can’t read it to him right now (mac and cheese)

Sonja says:
awww

Jenny says:
“Indeed”
I started laughing and couldn’t explain

Sonja says:
lol

Jenny says:
“And the b&d would be bedded and disoriented?”

Sonja says:
LOL yep!
lol jeez

Jenny says:
maybe I should turn on the webcam and we can all discuss this lol

Sonja says:
lol oh god no

Jenny says:
LOL!

Sonja says:
i can’t get hot and bothered yet
i’m thinking this could be a great blog post for you tho

Jenny says:
“That’s horrible”
and I am thinking so!

Sonja says:
and yes, it is horrible
lortab def makes me a little more demented. like my filters are just gone lol

Jenny says:
LOL!
I know the feeling!

Sonja says:
“Love, Sex, and Chronic Illness” or something
i’d totally link to it too

Jenny says:
LOL! I was going with I love my husband and friends (because I was going to mention a conversation with sara as well)

Sonja says:
that works too!

Jenny says:
But I like your title better since I can’t find the one with sara

Sonja says:
ah
if we don’t laugh, we cry right?