I miss being naive about pain. I miss not knowing daily pain. I miss thinking the pains from my endometriosis, especially on my period, was the worst it would be. I don’t remember ever having a truly functional body, though I do remember less pain, but this daily pain in my joints and muscles, the migraines that are being controlled by two meds so that I’m not having the migraines daily, it’s hard.

I am only 33, I shouldn’t be having this much difficulty with moving, or talking, or thinking, or staying awake. I shouldn’t feel like I have anchors weighing down my limbs as I try to move.

I’m just tired.