This morning the Funeral Home called us. We had ordered our copy of Lily’s death certificate through them, and we were being informed they finally had it, and that we could either pick it up there, or we could have them mail it to us. I told the woman to go ahead and keep it and I’d pick it up. A bit later I realized that if they had the death certificate they must have the cause of death from the coroner. I called her back and asked, and she told me that the answer the coroner came up with is “undetermined” which means that it’s SIDS.
I have so many emotions going on…. relief, grief, frustration, anger, depression and so on.
Over all, now that I’m really having it sink in (even though it’s what we expected) I’m feeling like I’m drowning.