April 2009


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I’m trying to relax, and make the room I’m in conducive to relaxation. I’ve got a candle going, vanilla oil in the oil holder above the candle, the house heater on, and soft music on. I also have blankets out here with me to lay on and to cover myself with if I decide to lay down. Hopefully between all of that and some pain meds I will make it through tonight, but I’m pretty uncomfortable right now.

I’m now having my periods every couple weeks again.  I hadn’t truly realized it completely until one of my friends whose cycle is close to mine said she’ll be having  hers again next week.  She usually has hers the week before I have mine.  So in April she had hers at the beginning, then I spotted the 9th, bled the 10th and spotted from the 11th through the 14th.  I started spotting again the 29th and am now on my period as of the (early) morning of the 30th.  so… 18days from the start of spotting last time to the start of spotting this time.  I hope I don’t get back to where I was at 15.  What ended up getting me on birth control the first time (when I was 15) was me bleeding (and it was heavy, this is mostly just spotting at this point) for 6 to 8 days, stopping for the same amount of time and back on for 6 to 8 days.  It was a constant cycle like that.  I really hope I’m not heading back there.  If I am I’m going to say the same thing for a lap that my friend is saying for her hyst (she’s preparing for a hyst even though she knows it’s not a guaranteed cure for her endo, it’ll at least get her aedno out of her)… I’ll either make payments or do medical bankruptcy.  I don’t want to do any type of bankruptcy, but at that point I’m going to want a lap to get the endo out, and then look into treatments, whether it’s birth control or something else – I am not going through what I did at 15 again!

I’m now having my periods every couple weeks again.  I hadn’t truly realized it completely until one of my friends whose cycle is close to mine said she’ll be having  hers again next week.  She usually has hers the week before I have mine.  So in April she had hers at the beginning, then I spotted the 9th, bled the 10th and spotted from the 11th through the 14th.  I started spotting again the 29th and am now on my period as of the (early) morning of the 30th.  so… 18days from the start of spotting last time to the start of spotting this time.  I hope I don’t get back to where I was at 15.  What ended up getting me on birth control the first time (when I was 15) was me bleeding (and it was heavy, this is mostly just spotting at this point) for 6 to 8 days, stopping for the same amount of time and back on for 6 to 8 days.  It was a constant cycle like that.  I really hope I’m not heading back there.  If I am I’m going to say the same thing for a lap that my friend is saying for her hyst (she’s preparing for a hyst even though she knows it’s not a guaranteed cure for her endo, it’ll at least get her aedno out of her)… I’ll either make payments or do medical bankruptcy.  I don’t want to do any type of bankruptcy, but at that point I’m going to want a lap to get the endo out, and then look into treatments, whether it’s birth control or something else – I am not going through what I did at 15 again!

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am preparing some articles/posts/writings on vaginismus and vulvodynia and the way I personally have dealt with the issues, as well as how E and I have worked through them.
This will be split into a two part (at least) series, and one of these will include very sexual information – that one will include a disclaimer for any friends and/or family not wanting to read about my sex life, as well as for any squeamish and/or sensitive readers who are not interested in reading about things of that nature.

Because I never posted this after last weeks raid:
Get up enough before raids (and get E up early enough) to be able to put Aspercreme and IceyHot onto my hands beforehand, and get some NSAIDs into me.

For those who don’t know, we play World of Warcraft – and we are now in a raiding guild – I heal raids at least once every two weeks now that we are getting our guild built back up. My hands don’t necessarily like some of the fast moving that is involved, and really don’t like staying where I need them to…. they were pretty swollen last time (my first raid)…. so I need to get up early enough to take some preventative measures. Don’t think I could do this much more often than two times a week. And I’m not sure I’d want to anyway lol.

I had a bad flare after I took a walk Tuesday morning. I felt good for a couple hours, but then I started getting achy. It got way too hot in the house that day, so I woke up a couple hours after going back to sleep, and it took me a few hours to fall back asleep, so I didn’t get good sleep at all that day, though I did finally sleep for a couple hours more. I flared until I woke up Thursday morning… so I didn’t do any posts of be here now during that time…
So here are some highlights from the time that I didn’t post anything for.

-Playing with the photos I took on my walk the other day – in a program I actually get… I never got past the basics with Photoshop, so it was a waste. I use Picasa now and I’m enjoying it a lot, even though I can’t do some things I want to that I could in photoshop…. if I were using photoshop Id be bugging E, Ja or a friend (the latter two by phone or IM) for help on how to do what I want to LOL! So it’s probably not a bad thing to be using a more simple program for now…

– Watching M and E play with the toy that E bought for him

– E cooking chili! I told him that he was guaranteed I’d never leave him due to the sex and the food LMAO! Of course – there are so many other reasons (and much deeper reasons) that I wouldn’t leave him, but I don’t mind those two things being reasons 🙂

– Cuddles!

– Sleeping in a much cooler house!

– Sleep… wonderful sleep… in a cool room, with fresh air blowing in!

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